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help me por favor

Wed, 06 Sep 2006 01:32:55 GMT

wow, i havent written in a really long time. i thought i would say hey. so hey! haha no really im writing for an opinion actually. i am kinda in a bad situation. i have started to date a guy who is not a christian. even though he is the nicest guy i have ever met and noone has ever treated me better i know i cannot be with him. so i want to ask you all...how do i get out of this? its hard to say "i cant date you because you arent a christian" because the rebuttal is always "but i am a christian", and you cant argue that. i cant say i am more spiritual or moral than him because he has definitely seen me in my sin. gosh, i am in a predicament. what do you think i should do? my friend gary was telling me how i couldnt get closer to justin without getting farther away from God and i cant get closer to God without getting farther away from justin. so now i am super frustrated

Please Pray

Tue, 21 Feb 2006 17:17:19 GMT

I'm sure most of you all know this already, but Peter wrecked Sunday morning. a really horribly bad wreck. The guy in the backseat died and the other is in neurological intensive care. and peter is still in the hospital with a collapsed lung and broken ribs. but he is probably coming home today so i am super excited about that. but please pray for him because he is feeling so guilty about everything that has happened. he finally talked to Jason's family and they forgave him, which brightened his spirits a lot. but he is usually such a strong person and it is really painful to see him so weak. its been a hard weekend, but God is sovereign. and even though i cannot see how this could have any good purpose, it must.

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 05:05:44 GMT

I need a place to live!!!!!!!!

goodness im stressing now cause i have like...oh...two weeks to find a place and move. woa. anyone know of anything?

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Wed, 14 Dec 2005 00:45:22 GMT

stop stressing because God IS in control. He is sovereign and everything works for His purpose. Woa those words are way easier to say than to believe.

When I said, "My foot is slipping," your love, O Lord, supported me. When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul. (Psalm 94:18-19)

and woa. just listening to the song that plays on my page is really encouraging.

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 02:25:24 GMT

had THE funnest night tonight. which is such a relief because i stressed out majorly today. by the time i got to my meeting w/ bwaller in the afternoon i just started crying...for no good reason.

but...went to TCPC and had pizza, got to see all my friends before they leave from Xmas break. Then we went to midnight crunch brunch, stood in line forever but got free tshirts!! on the way out ben got to hold the door for shagari...WOA. then we got into a snowball fight and i somehow lost my free tshirt, but it was ok cause i ran in and got a new one while ben drove around the block. so now im exhausted, but relieved.

Monday, December 12, 2005

Mon, 12 Dec 2005 02:29:06 GMT

last night was the formal and it was sooo fun. ben and i had an awesome time and im soo glad we went together. everyone looked absolutely gorgeous and it was the perfect way to end the semester!

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 19:52:21 GMT

well my scholarship decided it isnt going to pay for books anymore so now i owe $400 and my mom isnt going to help me pay for it. and i cant get a job right now because i cant stand up for more than 20 minutes cause my leg hurts too bad. i dont know what im going to do.

i also talked to my mom about getting a car because i cant even get to church right now and all she said was "well i guess you'll be riding your bike everywhere"

Monday, December 05, 2005

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 01:55:57 GMT

I'm so shocked. and angry really. why would you commit suicide after seeing the grief the church has gone through in the last year? it seems so selfish to me. and maybe there are underlying reasons that in his mind somehow validated the choice, but i cant imagine them at this point. Why does God let a church and people that are so true to his word and so dedicated to serving him endure such hardship? i really dont want our church to turn into a scandal. that scares me, because noone will want to hear our gospel.

Friday, December 02, 2005

Fri, 02 Dec 2005 06:59:06 GMT

It's time for winter formal once again and time for me to begin stressing out about a date. Last year I went with just a group of girls and it was miserable because all my best friends had dates and they all went to dinner as "couples", then at the dance not a single person asked me to dance. So this year Im determined to go with a date because I dont want that to happen again. Courtney already has a date because all the boys are obsessed with her (which why shouldnt they be? shes awesome) but yeah, I dont want to feel enormously left out.

So Schlinker has apparently been thinking and telling people that he's been hanging out with Courtney Carr. Ive had various people approach me and make comments about how theyve heard whats been going on. I was confused at first until Seth told me Eric always talks about Courtney Carr at home and how they went to a concert etc. So CMac confronted him and told him that in fact her name was Courtney McNeely and not Courtney Carr and now all is well. Hopefully the rumors have ceased. haha.

I started my application for RUF summer internship today. To India. Im really excited but reading through the application almost made me feel guilty. It asks about spirituality and purity and holiness and I cant help thinking...I'm a vile, sinful person, Im not pure or holy. But then I have to remember that Christ IS, and I am Christ...so Im covered :-p

Friday, November 25, 2005

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 16:17:19 GMT

Thanksgiving was SO awesome. Im amazed, and really thankful. Usually we go visit my dad's family, where no one is a Xian and there is always AT LEAST one drunken fight. This year, my parents and I just had a few random friends over for dinner and we talked and laughed and played games and everyone got along and had a nice time. I've always been resentful that I dont have a strong family structure, but God is really showing me that even if it isnt your immediate family, he puts amazing Xian people in your life to influence you and push on towards Him. So cool.

Roger came last night, and I am so excited for him. A year ago he believed that Xianity absolutely was not true and that there was no God. Now, he's wanting to come to CRU events and possibly open to coming to church. I just know he's going to start loving Christ one of these days!